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MEEP!!

^^,

good morning today!! good morning Lord!! thank you for today.. i'm over the moon from yesterday.. why?

because i finally made it.. YES!!

after these long months of waiting and fooling around eh.. hahaa!! can't wait to go back to feel the tension of student's life.. chaos and hectic.. i know i'm not that kind of student ma..

God always lead me to the good way, i know that.. yahhh!! i don't what to expect.. hwaiting!!

(manglish and broken bi are highly found in this article..)

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WTF..

afternoon pep!!

..meep..^^

i just want to story one dream i had this morning.. it was a strange one.. well, 3 of my friends came to my house.. Nyepak, not real name, sat near me.. i don't expect her to come to my house.. cause she is not really my friend.. huhuu.. her attitude, behavior really suck eh.. all of my ex-classmates hate her sometimes but she's just a human like us.. aigo.. i don't really know how to describe her attitude here.. but she seems to not notice it at all..

enuf of all that.. continue to my main story.. i don't know where my other 2 friends.. those are my best friends in real life.. my mom suddenly appeared in the scene.. don't know from where she'd came.. but she became my heroine in the dream.. because my mom always reminded nyepak, not real name, to go home.. hahaa!! i think it was the third times my mom reminded her, then she get out.. hahaa!! looks like my mom don't her too.. wonder what happen to her.. hopefully she finds out that everyone at school hate her.. LOL!! feels sorry for her once she found out soon or later..

(malanglish and broken bi are highly found here.. so paham2 la.. for fun..)

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MEEP!!

...meep!!..>.<

huhuu.. today is sunday.. tomorrow is monday..

this morning tadi pegi church.. stella maris.. missa bahasa iban.. 50-50 saya tumpukan perhatian.. so many obstacles, challenges and difficulties.. but to show how much i love GOD, i had to overcome it.. at last i'd made it.. hahaa!!

what kind of difficulties i'd to face??

first of all.. it was a mass in iban's language.. all my life i'd attended malay's masses.. meep!! oopss! no *meep*.. plus i don't really understand the language.. well, out of 10, i think i'd scored 5.. i'm not that bad in iban.. i grew up in multi languages communities.. so, i can understand almost all languages.. not angkat bakul here!! some of my uncles, aunties, friends, neighbors, and teachers are ibanese.. also, i don't have the iban's mass book.. how come i could follow and focus with my praying?? *hmm..*

second, the church was too crowded.. plus, there was a kid in front of us crying during the mass.. so distracted.. cannot focused at all.. last2 then the father brought his child out of the church.. *malanglish* thank god..

third but not last.. the church was hot but not too hot.. not that kind of 'hot'!! *meep* and the songs.. *sigh* well, i'm not complaining here.. (oh yeah?) but when was the last time i heard the most energetic songs in church instead of St. Francis Xavier?? none!! i missed the loud and spirit's lifted songs that those SMKB's students used to sing..

anyway.. tomorrow is monday.. yeah, i'd mentioned it before.. WTF.. okay, tomorrow will determine my future and the rest of my life.. gosh!! i sounded like it is a huge thing.. well, it is!! the result for UITM's second intake!! hopefully i make it!! i really, really, really wanted this.. i'd became a 'bayat' for too long now.. i can't sit here and doing nothing anymore.. ooooo.. *.*.. pray for the best and prepare for the worse.. i REALLY hope i make it!! hwaiting!!

-nong-

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it's ok to..

• BE SELFISH! (Sometimes.. you need me time too!)

• Giggle like a dizzy and crazy schoolgirl. especially when a cute boy winks at you. (Mostly my Suju, 2PM, BEAST, Bigbang, FT Island oppas~ kkekke!!)

• Have a blonde moments.. it happens to the best of us!

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Another question that stucked in my mind!!

Have you ever felt bad about the way you look?

YESSSSS!!!!

but, you know what??

EVERYBODY does!!

Everybody looks in the mirror and is like, I wonder why her ears are small and mine are bigger. But i realized that if you're lucky enough to be different from everybody else, don't change. Because at the end of the day, it's make me - ME!

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Ordinary people

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Maybe we'll live and learn

Maybe we'll crash and burn

Maybe you'll stay

Maybe you''ll leave

Maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight

Maybe we won't survive

Maybe we'll grow

We'll never know

Baby, you and I

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cause we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

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another lyric i cut and pasted.. this one by John Legend - 'Ordinary People'.. well, it's not like i love to cut and paste other people' songs.. i just felt the contains of the lyric was inspired me.. hahaa!! expects more from me.. coz i will.. peace (^.^)v.. chill out-

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nothing in this world..

hi, world.. cewah.. nie sy mo story sal satu bnda.. x jugak la menarik tapi bole la bagi sy.. apa aa.. nah, lupa suda nie.. hahaa! what is the meaning of life? sapa tau? soklan nie subjektif.. x pun bole buat soklan esei.. so many meaning kan..? setiap kita ada pendapat masing2.. bagi sy len, bagi ko len, bg org len.. tapi lead kita pada satu benda.. kita mo yg terbaik or ter-best tok hidup kita kan? mana ada seorg dlm dunia ni x nak yg terbaik dlm hidup dia.. bodo la org tu kalo ada.. tapi impossible wujud.. i hope that my life will be much better.. coz i have so any dreams.. future is waiting ahead for me.. just hit the road and rock on, have fun, take risks, prepare for the consequences, no regret, it's BRAVE!! hahaa! dreams on..

-nong-

(^.^)V

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아직도

*sigh*

i never wanted to admit it

i never thought we were ending like this

but i gotta say

i still love you

i can't remember what i did today

i was waiting for your call and i ended up doing nothing

i really miss you and in my mind

i can still see the images of you

those who doesn't know smiles and

asks how you are doing

the word "break up" is still unfamiliar

so i couldn't say anything about it

i still haven't learned about breaking up

and still not sure what sadness means

still even if you leave me for now

i won't believe it

tears won't come out

still even if it sounds like a lie rather than a sad song

still i can feel little by little

now i'm crying i guess it's beginning

i wanna rewind it

you and me laughing in this picture

the loneliness wrapping around me and i spend the night in tears

~oh, shit!~

after you've left, the sad love has built a Fallin' love spaceship

you've lingered in my mind all day and

you've left and i can't do anything about it

now i want to catch you

now i can't love if it's not you

i miss when i would look at you and you would smile back

no matter how i try we probably can't be together

the fact i wasn't a decent man lingers on my mind

and i keep regretting that

never knew it would hurt this much

i never know

if i knew what it meant earlier

no no~

rewind the time so i could have held you back

and never let you go

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has nothing to do with me, my life or what so ever..

this is just another lyric i rewritten..

i just thought the lyric is somehow got my attention..

and the song just sounds so beautiful..

now i understand what are they talking about..

hahaa!!

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To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. Ralph Waldo Emerson

yup.. that's right.. i can't argue with it.. so true and so me.. this quote really fits me well. i can picture myself in this.. really.. hahaa!! i am just a simple girl in this complex world, trying to fit somewhere and somehow.. huhuu.. we'll never know what's coming after us today, tomorrow, soon.. we'll just have to be prepared to face it and never give up, stay strong, never give in.. life's a struggle when you're on your own.. we can do this together we don't have to be afraid.. remember!! when you're in trouble don't do it by yourself.. if u ever need some help, you're not the only one that felt this way.. it's gonna be all right again.. (life is struggle - Blazin' Squad).. trust in HIM.. he'll opens and shows you a way.. because HE is the way, the truth and the life..

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I JUST WANNA..

i just wanna breath freely.. i just wanna enjoy every moment of my life.. i just wanna share everything i have to people around me.. i just wanna learn everything that i don't know.. i just wanna lead my life toward excitement and life my life to the fullish not foolish.. i just wanna be loved and love people around me.. i just wanna do something that affect and effect others.. i just wanna life.. i just wanna to be myself.. i just wanna.. tell me what is your heart beat for..

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little message

akhirnya.. finally.. dlm BI.. ku berjaya atasi masalah yg menyusahkan aku slama 2,3 ari ni.. ku kembali normal setelah beberapa ari tak dapat menikmati dan menghayati keindahan bunyi.. wakakaka.. syukur2..

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FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE!!

can't sleep.. know why..? i have big problem right now.. pekak telinga sebelah sy nie.. dah beberapa hari suda.. effect sebab kena masuk air dulu ni kalik.. p napa baru sekarang? adoi.. sengsaranya sy x dapat mendengar dgn efisien.. haha! terasa dunia ni sunyi semacam pulak.. besala.. sy kan loud person.. maybe sebab tu kalik sy hadapi masalah ni.. huahua.. harap baik la esok.. kalo tak, sy mo g jumpa doktor cepat2.. nanti permanent terus kan susah.. sy jadi oku.. nda mau.. tulung la.. jgn la ba ko kasi men2 sy.. sakit ba itu kena kasi men2..

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love my superultrahypermegaton(?) craziness.

i just listened to yet another new and latest song.. this time by BEAST.. hehe!! the title is Oasis.. in geography, an oasis is an isolated area of vegetation in a desert, typically surrounding a spring or similar water source. but that's not what the song was all about.. it's such a paradisaic lyric and melody.. yay!!

~when i was standing at the end of the world

and couldn't see the path

i needed someone

when i was trapped in the darkness

and couldn't see the light

i was waiting for the helping hand

you wouldn't know that you are the only one in the world

only one more than better world

i believe dream for you and me

you are the long waited rain in my draughty day

you soaked my heart and gave me courage

you make me fly and smile again

coming into my arms and giving happiness silently

just like a rainbow after a shower

i wanna make a love

when you found out that i ran away

perhaps you were you disappointed

i had courage to come back

because you were there

you're the one always in my heart

oh lonely night, it's an endless and stuffy dark night

those are the days when i cried alone during the dark nights in the lieu (a place of) of the people

who would only hurt my callow (immature) heart

and my heart was having a draught

i know that it's ain't easy but that okay, you make a way

the person who will be always guiding me is you

the only reason of living only you

within my desert you are my oasis

the sweetest chocolate~

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Down.. Down.. Down..

Baby are you down down down down down,

Downnnnnnn, downnnnnnn,

Even if the sky is falling down,

Downnnnn, downnnnn..

Baby are you down down down down down,

Downnnnnnn, downnnnnnn,

Even if the sky is falling down,

Downnnnn, downnnnn..

this is one of Jay Sean's songs.. hehee.. pretty catchy!! it's stucked in my head.. though it's has nothing to do with my feeling right now.. just wanna sing-a-long to it.. i like to listen to his 'Stolen' song too.. well, there are so many good and kicking some asses' songs nowadays, don't they?.. left us with so many choices to listen from.. my ears are getting really hurt right now.. hahaa.. so many songs i had listened these days..

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midnight to dawn

yah!! I'll try my best to update myself with this blogs stuff.. though sometimes i was too busy (huhuk!!), forgot or just being lazy.. this is the real me.. finally revealed.. huahuahua!! that's why i don't own a diary.. i like people who is constantly write down everything in her/his diary.. looks like life is wonderful when we read back what we had done in those old times.. flashback moment!! i tried to write down everything, everyday in my diary but it'd only stayed for a week.. i lost my interest in writing every single things that happened in detail everyday.. gosh!! but i do write down what i feel at one time on the spot.. whether it's a good or bad or even crap.. example, just like now.. just now i felt like i should write something in my blog, so i ended up writing this crap stuff..

what is I'm doing in this very moment? why i didn't go to bed already, right? well.. I'm playing games in FB.. thinking that i might be addicted to it already.. hahaa.. anyway, who cares?! I'm listening to my new addictive songs.. k pop's song to be exactly.. keeps me from yawning non stop because I'm feeling sleepy already.. i will go to bed after i finish play those silly games.. silly yet I'm still play them..

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Morning Sunshine

MORNING people!!

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>o<

baru bangun tido..

and these pics i took just now..

i thought why not took some fresh looking pics?..

huhuu..

i took these from my bed room..

with my cheap hand phone..

not clear (better) pixel..

and my so-so 'photograph skill'..

this kind of result you get lor..

kkekke~

but it's still something unique..

in it's own way..

my masterpiece..

one of my wild (babo) dream would be a professional photographer just like somebody that is famous..

hahaa..

right now all i ever wanted is a new camera..

tell me your wish..

xoxo..

-nong-

^.^\/ (peace out!)

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i'm back.. hahaa.. just posted a new post an hour ago.. but here i'm once again.. wanna write some more craps.. kkekke~ well i'm just logged out from FB.. fta played games and commented on others' walls i got bored already.. tambah dosa sebakul lagi.. huhuu.. i like it nyway.. >o<...

what i want to talk about huh?? okay.. tomorrow some of my friends are going to sit for an exam.. i wished them all good luck and all the best!! huhuu.. felt a bit worried for them.. don't know if they are going to make it and nail it or just go for it with an empty brain.. hahaa.. remembered the old days, me.. last minute study.. from morning until dawn.. finished 2 cups of coffee.. well, my highest achievement was 3 cups of coffee.. WTF?! hahaa.. for me it's the best way and method since i have a short term memory and limited memory space.. don't know how much and big my G.. hahaa.. don't know what's wrong with me.. no matter how 'hard' i study.. i forgot it.. and one thing that i hate about myself is no matter how good i am at some subject, when it is time for exam, all the things I've learnt are just gone.. vanished.. left me wondering around the whole hours to figure out the answers by myself.. ahh!! why am i so forgetful?!! sial!! see.. i'm started to curse.. again.. wakaka!! it's not a good thing though.. don't try this at home.. ^.^

hmm.. if only i had found a special ubat to cure my stupid problems.. which is easy, not cost a lot of money, and not hard to find.. haha.. would it be better?!.. no need for me to worry about exam anymore.. stand still, and look damn confident! kkekke~ lessons yg kita studied dari chapter 1 sampai last chapter, (brapa lama mo studdy tu..) kena pour all out in 2 hrs exam.. cam x berbaloi pulak sy rasa.. cam study just for exam.. HUH~ (with a very heavy sighed!)

this led me to another problems of mine which is wanting all things to be so super duper easy breezy.. well, heck no my lady!! nothing is easy in this world.. you gotta work HARD for it.. hehee.. but i still wished it is.. okay.. that's all for now.. i guess.. huhuu..

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Friday the 13th..

Friday the 13th is the day of the month which superstition holds it to be either a day of good or bad luck.

yeah!! that's what a lot of people think.. what do you think though?

do you believe it?

or you don't?

what am i talking about?

cut this crap out!!

HAHAA!!

anyway, it's depend on everybody's opinion.. it's a subjective question if you ask me.. maybe my opinion is different from yours..

whether you believe in this such thing, well it's up to you..

for me it's pretty the same day as others' day.. (my sentence felt kinda wrong.. but who cares?)

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Random Talk

hi.. it's me again.. i'm not here to talk about kevin wu, ryan niga or mychonny or what so ever.. i'm here to talk about anything or something that i feel like i want to talk about.. huh?! what the crap am i talking about?! cut it out!! huhuu.. talking to myself this whole day.. one way to be stress-free.. damn!! the internet is working damn slow like siput!! cannot do thing fast n furious.. well at least it's still working.. yah!! where i can complaint about this bad service huh??

i don't want to bebel about this actually.. but i guess i don't have any other and better choice than this.. whatever.. it's my blog anyway.. freely to talk shit about something that upset me.. huhuu.. ^.^.. see, cursing is not my field.. in fact i'm not expert in it.. but i thought using curse words is really something.. not in the good way and vice versa.. depends!! cooler than people that are smoking.. huhuu.. it's not that i hate smoker people.. in fact, people that are close to me are smoker.. so i can't run from the smell of cigarette.. huhuu.. whatever!! i'm not a smoker and i'm try not to be one.. but i had tried before.. and i don't understand why people said it is cool and great to smoke.. opps! kantoi?! nah.. normal stuff that normal teenager would do.. try and try until they die?? hahahaa..

i'm talking about random things now.. as u can see.. from bad service of internet then "how cool is it to curse" to smoking people.. hahaa.. so out of topic.. no wonder i got bad grade in composition and essay.. and my English is so broken.. feel free to comment.. i'm not gonna attack u or something.. people learn from mistake, right? as long as u can understand what i am talking about.. which is totally crap and bulls**t.. hahaa.. once again felt cool to use these words..

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