K.A.R.I.S.M.A....
that's how u spell it.. yeah that's rite bebeh.. haha.. u see.. i've been M.I.A for a quite a while now.. it's not like i did it on purpose, but it was because i'd a lot of things went around and i just couldn't handled it with care.. WTF!!
okay.. here it goes..
i was busied training and draining my sweat off so many lately for this tournament.. K.A.R.I.S.M.A!! i thought that i'd given my very best in my training days but i was wrong.. yeah.. u see, as we grow older so does our stamina wearing us down rite..?? i thought that i'd worked my ass out hard for this but yet i've got a lot of things that i am lacking of up till now..
that was another reason! another reason was lacked of teamwork.. somehow, we managed to mix and blend finely within a month as our friendship is growing deeper and deeper each day though it was not enough to build some chemistry and connection in the games A.S.A.P.. it's forgivable since we are still new and has no connection yet.. if only we trained sooner, we could be able to create a history now.. IF ONLY..
despite all that, however i've learnt a very valuable lesson throughout this karisma tournament.. first of all, i met new people.. i've made new friends.. outside of my comfort and usual zone.. at least i've known people that are outside my league.. actually they are nice.. not that bad huh??!! huhuhu.. i've come to know their true colors as they come to know mine too.. we are the same, really.. haha.. crazy.. crazier.. and craziest!! they are fun to be around and we can mixed really well despite our differences.. haha.. when we are inside the dorm and gathered together, there is always happy moments and we had so much fun together.. and on the other hand, they also come to know and perhaps change their perspective about people like us.. we are actually crazy like them.. i am loud and spontaneous.. sometimes.. kkekeke.. but maybe still hiding a little tiny of my nails inside.. hehehe.. hopefully, after karisma ended, we still be friends though maybe not this close anymore.. at least we was close before and we had FUN!!
another things i've learnt was that WINNING IS NOT EVERYTHING!! as before from the birth of the sense of reality into my life, i always live to win.. but this tournament really taught me something that i was never thinking of.. losing but with no regret.. NO FEELING! who wants to lose rite? i was about to get mad and cry the moment i realized that my team was not gonna make it, to be exact - NEVER going to make it.. i was so upset and wanted to blame all of us because not training so hard and goofy around.. WTF.. my mind was set to win but with this kind of condition and preparation, winning is out of sight.. it didn't even a tiny little sign to show off our chance of winning.. huh, should known it already.. when the first wave of lost hit me, i was ok.. but twice in the row.. and the unacceptable part of it was we lost humiliatedly with a emberassing scores.. at least for me since i was never lost to such kind of games before.. so UNACCEPTABLE! but when i hit myself off the wall, i've to realize that i deserved that LOST.. hehehe.. i have a lot more to learn.. futrhermore, i have an experience to share about losing badly to these teams.. my first time to play that i didn't set my mind to win instead of having fun COMPLETELY throughout the games.. it was the first time i didn't felt any stress at all.. gosh! it did feel DIFFERENT.. haha~
at the perasmian karisma just now.. i was completely insanely losing my mind and get loose.. hahaha.. didn't care what other might think of me now.. as long as i'm having fun and it didn't come that often rite? so, why must waste it rather than enjoy it to the fullest, aite?
as for me now, i'm starting to enjoy this joyride and living my life with no regret(?).. hopefully, everythings will turn out nicely.. later GEEZ~
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