ola pep! huhu... it's not like people are aware and read my blog, neway WTE!! i'm still in holiday mode since my final exam couple of months ago.. so i was lazy-ing around and make the most of fool out of myself.. i don't get myself either.. i don't know what i am talking about.. damn my rusted brain..didn't functioning well these days.. well, served me since i'm just kicked back and doing nothing and wandering around this place.. hahaha.. i'm using my ultimate breakaway moment right now, not quite.. before hitting the class again..
okay first thing first.. it will be started next week as my beginning of student life, again.. gladly announcing that i am in my 2nd sem.. and proudly and honourly saying that i have one repeat paper to take this sem which is BEL120.. consolidating with language? i think so.. sorry for my poor writing and grammar skills here.. guess that's why i deserved to retake english paper..
as the holidays come to an end.. i feel like i don't want to give it up yet and starting to work my brain up.. i've been in this kind of state for 2 months, x accurately.. where my mind is shut down and rusted.. now i have to generate my old, cold, long unused brain to start functioning like before.. even better this time, must be.. my poor result this 1st sem really let me down a bit.. but as a positive thinker, this is nothing but a dust in the wind,i hope so.. meaning to say, i have to work my ass out really hard and badly for this coming sem.. geez..
i hate regretting the past.. i don't like reminising the bad, annoying old days.. it made me feel even harder to take a breath.. what past it's a past.. i've learnt my lessons.. and i don't feel like i want to repeat the same thing ever again.. learn from your mistakes.. i know it sound a little chessy but, its all my mistakes.. i know i've done stupid and silly things back then.. but that's it.. please..x asking why shouldn't u, why must u, why didn't u, bla blaaa bla.. stop.. the end.. no one should like bring this thing up ever again..ok?
what i really hope this time is that i remember what its like to feel bad about these things and find a way not to let these bring me down..be positive about everything that had happened and endure patiently what will be waiting for me in the future..never let my hope and spirit down..make me brave and patient enough to make it through..it's not like i'm doing this for myself.. there are lot of people counting down on me..it's such a burden if u're in my position..i bet most of us feel the same way..well, they are hoping for me and keeping the faith that i can make it..but i feel otherwise..don't know what we'll get..life is full of surprise and i really hate it when it comes towards me without any warning..i hate surprises!
